Sunday, January 08, 2012
Great Food. More fun in the Philippines.


Here's my own meme for It's More Fun in The Philippines featuring Splash&Sizzles BINALOT Chicken and Pork Adobo in Pampanga.^^

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
12:22 AM

Thursday, July 30, 2009
top ten influencial blogger

The Influential Blogger is conducting a Top Ten Emerging Influential Bloggers Contest. I'm voting for the following ten blogs:

1. Jena Isle's Random Thoughts: http://www.jenaisleonline.com/
2. Dr. Lorenzo Bernardino - Zorlone - http://zorlone.blogspot.com
3. Jan Geronimo- Writing to Exhale - http://writingtoexhale.com
4. Roy dela Cruz-The Struggling Blogger-http://thestrugglingblogger.168center.com
5. Angel Cuala - Fatherbloggerdotcom - http://fatherblogger.com
6. Kelvin Servigon - Kelvinonian Ideas 2 - http://kelvinonian.com
7. Irene - Lifelots - http://lifelots.blogspot.com
8. Bing - I Love/Hate America - http://www.ilovehateamerica.com
9. Luke - A Walk in the Dark - http://darkestshade.blogspot.com
10.Dee - Tales from the Mom Side - http://www.talesfromthemomeside.com

I hope you'll drop by and cast your ballot too. The contest is sponsored by:

Absolute Traders, My Brute Cheats, Business Summaries, Fitness Advantage Club, Events and Corporate Video, Events at Work, Dominguez Marketing Communications, Red Mobile and Blog4Reviews.com.

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
2:41 PM

Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Success!! =3

woohoo! Let me say that I am proud that I got to finish our AUF Fun Run this morning..=3 I was afraid I wont make it back to school, but I did it!=3 It was approximately 5 kms. i know it's not much for pros, but to me, it's an achievement.=3 It showed me that by perseverance and will, I will be able to do what I set out to do!=3

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
3:37 PM

Friday, December 01, 2006
Quote # 1 -Yuuko Ishihara-xxxHOLiC

"If you don't trouble the rest of the world, there's no harm in being abnormal."

Wow.. i just love this quote.. its because it has something to do with being different/unique/weird from other people. It says that as long as you don't harm anybody else, you can be anybody you want to be. No one has the right to tell you what to do since you're not doing anything wrong. its just total freedom for me. Being who you really are, not trying to be what others want you to be.. isn't that wonderful?

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
1:10 PM

Saturday, November 25, 2006
addiction to anime strikes again!=3

hmm.. let me say that bumabalik na naman ang pagka-addict ko sa anime after ilang panahon ng pagiging dormant.. this is because during the last few weeks.. i've finished or been watching some in the internet.. these are:
Tsubasa Chronicles >> 1 ep left and the movie
xxxHOLiC >> finished
Ouran Highschool Host Club >> finished
Gravitation >> finished
Ah! My Goddess: Sorezore no Tsubasa >> watching

hmm.. and still looking for more..

aian,, yup, nahihibang nga na naman ako.. kulang siguro ko sa kaligayahan.. aiun.. so, i'm also back to collecting pics, listening to their music and all that stuff.. hai.. ewan ko ba.. its just something na nakadikit na sa pagkatao ko.. oh.. di ba.. lalim oh.. hehehe.. nwei, meron naman akong napupulot sa mga pinapanood ko eh.. but some are just for plain fun and satisfaction..=3
so, for the application part.. on my next posts.. i'll talk about the quotable quotes sa mga pinanood kong anime mostly ung nasa taas.. yup.. i'll say what i have to say about the quote..=3
aiun lng..=3 this is going to be good......=3

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
9:57 PM

TOXIC......

hmm.. tagal na kong hindi nag-bblog.. busy kc eh.. at kapag kc nagiinternet ako, no time din to blog.. aiun.. kya e2.. found the time.. so now, let me talk about my 2nd semester in college.. hai.. kkpgod talaga ang hyper nmin na sched.. MTW 7 am to 5 pm.. hai... tgabukas at tga sara ng skul.. nq nman oh.. well anyway.. ang talagang nkkpgod is the fact that mhirap tlaga ang subjects.. i hate GEN ED!!! waah! 10 units PE! curse you val! you will suffer someday! at yan po.. ang aking mga hinanakit.. mrami pa actually.. pro that's all for now.. at least.. what i can say is, i'm still here and living, and happy, so everything will be okay!!! OK?=3

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
9:47 PM

Tuesday, October 31, 2006
my dream avatars in gaia online..=3


these are just some of the avatars that one can possibly do in Gaia Online.. that is if you have lots of gold!!! haha!!!! *drooling* ^-^

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
1:51 PM

Gaia Online ADDICT!!

yup... this is what's been making me busy this past few days. i sit on the computer for hours and hours and hours but it's still not enough.. i guess i'm making most out of my vacation.. coz in a week it's going to be back to school.. back to work.. back to headaches and all that comes with being a college student..
so.. what's so addicting to gaia online? hmm.. let me think.. its mostly about making lots of money to make yourself a beautiful avatar, that's the gist of it i think, but another thing is that you get to meet people who become your friends from all over the world.. and you enhance correct english speaking and grammar..=3 hehe.. notice that i'm straight english today.. that's its effect on me..=3
also.. it also teaches me a lesson somehow.. i earn gold in gaia.. and i use that money to buy things i want.. its like in real life actually,, it makes me feel how i'm going to feel someday when i earn my own money and spend it for myself.. now i can really say its hard to spend money that you have worked so hard for..
its a distraction too.. from my recent problems about relationship.. that has troubled me a lot.. now i don't think of it much.. i've found a new outlet for my thoughts..=3

so.. come visit.. www.gaiaonline.com (= you may actually love it as much as i do..=3

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
1:04 PM

Thursday, October 19, 2006
pminsan2.. cnuswerte rin..

let me share what just happened a little while ago.. i'm communicationless the whole day because i don't have load again, i don't know why, then suddenly, AutoloadMax texted me, it says that i have been loaded with 30 pesos..hahaha! Lucky Me!=3 and so, its something different it's the first time it has ever happened so i shared it..=3 and also, today's 19, and i usually have a bad day during the 19th of every month.. so its something new to be lucky on this day.. that's it..=3

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
10:41 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006
hmmm....

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
11:16 PM

this can't be..

just when you thought everything will be fine, everything's actually still messed up.. yup, i could be that unlucky.. i don't know what's wrong.. what's happening.. i don't know what to do, i'm always bothered, i always think about what's going to happen if i do nothing about it.. i always recall what used to be.. how it was before, and it's definitely not the same as what's happening now, i can't ignore the feeling that i have, the feeling that tells me that something's not right, it pushes me to do something, save the friendship, don't let go, but i don't know what to do, confronting it is what i usually do.. but it scares me to do it.. it may turn out well, or it may worsen the problem, so what am i to do?? anyone.. i don't want the worst to happen, i can't have that anymore..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:28 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006
mistakes..mistakes..

wrong assumptions would get you nowhere and would only eventually lead to more mischief and conflicts..
now, how did i arrive to this conclusion? my experience for the day of course..
well, i don't have much to say about it.. its just because its been a while since i've blogged.. and the topic is something good to blog about right?
so here it is.. yup, like what i said above.. wrong assumptions causes trouble.. its like in Tagalog saying.. "Maraming namamatay sa maling akala." hmm.. true.. so before making assumptions, its really better to ask of all the facts, to not make any mistakes that you will regret afterwards.. but when you do get into deeper muck, it will be good to confront the problem, so you'll know what to do about it.. but sometimes, you get so unlucky that in confronting the problem, you got into deeper muck that before.. haha! that's very unfortunate of you then..
good thing for me.. it worked out well, and as it turned out, there was no problem at all.. it was my mistake that i thought there was.. tsk tsk.. assumptions..
now, with all that trouble, i think i'll just be superstitious and blame the date today.. its friday the 13th.. don't you know..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:13 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006
bye2 my botany lab manual...



Last September 13, 2006... we said goodbye to our Botany Lab Manuals.. you think this would be weird but no, for us, it was something because we had many memories in this book. We have our moments of laughter because we make fun of each other's drawings. Also, I love Botany.. it's my favorite subject for my first semester. I also love Mam Goce!=3 She's our instructor..=3 She's just plain fun. I enjoy Botany very much with her around. Definitely going to miss her when the semester ends..hai.. too bad that we do not have Zoology anymore next sem.. she could have been our teacher again then,
So back to the lab manual.. because we had to say goodbye to it, we took pictures and we reminisced about our drawings before we gave them up..=3 It's been very fun doing that.=3

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:20 PM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006
pooh..ds s 4 u..

d mo lang lam kung gaano ka na kaimportante skin..
dq maexpress in words feelings ko..
ano n nga bang meron tyo ngun?
relationship.. close friends cguro..
un n nga ba mtatawag stin?
hmm.. sb ko ayaw ko ng chemistry..
pro kung wla cguro tyong chem..
ndi tyo hahantong sa friendship na meron tyo ngayon..
it all started wid chem lec..june 13, 2006..
un ang first tym n knausap kta..xchanged names.. and dat's dat..
second tym..june 14, 2006..
tnanong mo nmn ako bout chem lab mnual..
kung nkabili nq and all..
third tym..june 19, 2006..
atlst CFE nmn 2.. nanghiram kmi ng speaker..
fourth tym..june 20, 2006..
d2 plang tyo ngclick..again,,back to chem..
b4 chem lab 2.. sa stairs..
kumopya ko ng definitions 4 laboratory apparatuses..
at un na un..dq malaman kung bkit bgla na lang tyong
ngkasundo2 nun.. gulo ntn sa loob ng chem lab..
la kc tchers nun at pngrrvw tyo for the quiz..eiun,
so naalala ko nlng nun is bsta nung lunch nga..
sbay2 tyo..mrmi tyo nun, pti cna aja ksma..
pro duh, ndi xa dhilan kung bkt tyo ngksma2..
so sa ala creme nga tyo bmagsak,
kya lang mhal dw sb nung iba..
kya tyong apat lang nina la and ya ang kmain dun..
tnakeout ko p nga ung chcken fingers db..
edi nung pbalik n nga tyo sa rum..
pnagkkwentuhan ntn cna ano..lmo n un..
c dinger..bout kng cno lng tlg gs2 niang ksma..at ndi kyo ni yaya un..
o bsta un n un..nung nxt day..sa intro 2 pharma n nga ngkaalaman kung cno mlilipat s 1-B..
and of course lmo n kng nu nngyari nun..
nwei..ayan, nphaba trip ko down memory lane..
pagtiyagaan mong bsahin 'to pls.. kht na mhaba..hehe..
un, days passed, at pinagpilitan ntn na mgkatugma ang ating pinag-ibang schedule..
pro we managed db.. galing.. tingin ko nga mas nkapgptbay p stin ung ngkhiwalay tyo ng section.. kc nga nmimiss kta..hehehe.. sb nga.. "how can i miss u if u won't leave?" o db..
so nitong mga panahon n ito.. ang dting hate ko na tues at thurs, i look 4ward to them na..
kc dun lang tyo ngkksabay ng lunch at sa pag-uwi..
then, there came the day na naimbento ko ang MALAYA accidentally.. dhil sa seating arrangement niong tatlo nung algebra.. loko2 lng un.. akalain ko bng mgging permanent twagan ntin n un.. msaia nman eh.. buti nga nmaintain ntn un.. i'm so glad.. really.. gs2 kong mgsmiley pro iniiwasan ko..ehe..sa huli na un..
at lumipas p nga ang mrming araw.. syempre mron pring conflicts..
about our misunderstandings?? ayaw mong mremember lht,, i know..
pro pgbgyan mo nq.. serious ako d2 eh..haha..
let's just not get into the morbid details.. in general nlng,,ok?
hmmm.. ndi ako sensitiv, manhid ako, ndi rn ako pla iyak.. mgaling mgpigil..
pro dti un.. nq, ewan ko ba kung bkit pgdting syo, npkanipis ko,
in a short span of time.. ilang beses akong ndepressed, at ilang beses dn ktang iniyakan..
drama ko tlg.. well, kya nga nung nlaman ko na umiyak krn nung one tym, atlst quits tyo.. ndi pla ko ng-iisa..haha.. ikinatuwa ko un, kung alam mo lng.. emo nrn tlg ko noh? sbagay,, dti p pla..
oion, close n tyo n2.. kya nung one tym n ako ang my ksalanan,, could have kicked myself for doing what i did, nwei, laking takot ko nlng nun,, kc sayang.. kung mwawala ang npagsmahan ntn.. kc lyk wat i sed nung mnsan n ngpkasenti ako at cnb ko sau na kw nlng huling pag-asa ko pra mgkaron ng friend n pngmtagalan.. hainq.. pra nqng c aja n2 s mga pngsssb ko.. pro yah.. 22o un, last hope tlg kta.. kya nga any kind of rejection is yes,, dinadamdam ko,, gnun n tlg ko knipis ngun, well, sau lng pla.. at sau lang ako ngkwento ng kung ano2 ha.. even ung wla png nkakaalam is ssbhin ko n sna syo.. pro s npgkasunduan ntn.. pg 1 year n tyong mgkkilala nlng un.. dal2 ko noh.. gs2 ko kc na mlaman mo ALL about me.. and same to u,, sna, someday.. ai, grabe n 2, pti ako nsosobrahan n s srili ko.. kya wawakasan ko na 2..
so sa experiences ko wid u.. this is wat i can say:
One word, one action could break us apart.. i only hope na never 2ng mngyayari, coz dat would break ME apart.. kya kht na ayaw mo, i'd still say 'sorry' s past actions, at s mga mgagawa ko pa for the years to come..

oh..mrmi k bng npulot s pngssb ko? lyk wat i oweiz say.. hindi ako cnungaling pgdting s mga gnito.. kya everything above are pure unadulterated facts..

so my Pooh bear, my Lilo, my twin, my box, my ma.. my bestfriend.. love you beary much.. =) >>ayan n ung smiley..hehehe..<< sana mgtuloy2 na 'to.. hoping for the best.. at xa nga pla.. happy 3nd mnthsary uli!! =)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:15 PM

Saturday, September 16, 2006
st. scholastica's academy...

it's been a while since it were the days when i stay and walk on these grounds and building.. it doesn't even look like this anymore at the present.. my last two happiest years in highschool were mostly spent in this part of the school.. on that second floor, the III-Manaoag and IV-Wisdom rooms are found.. I have many memories in this place.. even if i'm happy in college right now, i still want to come back to my highschool.. I'd love to come home to St. Scholastica's Academy..


Now, this picture here is what most visitors will see everytime they go to the school since it's at the front. It leads to the parlor, that door found below the name of the school. But also in this picture is a clear view of my very first room in St. Scho as a freshman. On the second floor, four set of windows from the left is I-Sarah's room. I've also had my share of good memories here. This is where I experienced my first year as a highschool student after all, and a new school to boot after staying in Asian Montessori Center for 5 years. At least, I have many classmates who came from Montessori too. So, I was not completely alone.

The Narra Avenue. This is a place a Scholastican will never be able to avoid. This avenue leads straight to the gradeschool building. Left of this avenue is our Covered Court and School Canteen which are actually the most lively places in all of the school. God, I can't count all the times I've walked, strolled, ran, and just fooled around this lane. By the way, before we graduated, we enjoyed the convenience of our newly built Pergola. So, this picture of the avenue seems incomplete now, there should be the pergola lurking around there, which is definitely absent in the picture. It's one thing you'd not miss once you go to school now, it's a very long passageway after all, the Pergola I mean. It was built for the convenience of the lazy students who hate walking under the wicked heat of the sun. And was also for our recently passed PAASCU accreditation of course..=3

Anyway, for all it was worth, these pictures are not enough to relieve the homesickness every alumni feels after leaving St. Scholastica's Academy. So, why can't we just try and visit it sometime? Inspite of the said strictness of the guards for the past schoolyear. We have the right to come back! Just try and stop us, ha! Now, all I can say is, "Let's 'sko to St. Isko!" =3

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:00 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006
in another lifetime..

Last Thursday, I went to the cinema with my friend, ILa, to watch the film "Eternity". The movie was good enough. Quite interesting to me because I like looking into the past and I actually like reincarnation stories, more if its a love story. I heard the theme song and I loved it.

So, speaking of,, reincarnation.. do you believe in it? I don't know what my answer to that is, but I like the thought of it. Makes me wonder if I've had past lives, or if I will be born again someday after I die. Wonderful, isn't it? But we'll never know, really. So, I think I'll stick to the life I have now and enjoy it to the fullest.=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:11 PM

Sunday, September 10, 2006
how i hate that...

don't you just hate it when people keep pushing you to do something that you don't want to do? and more, if you were asked for an explanation. the big WHY? WHY do you want to know?? well, just recently, this happened to me and i really hate it, that i even cried because of frustration over the whole thing. they say its for my own good.. to develop my skill and personality, but what if I don't want to? i don't want to develop anything, i'm happy just the way I am, thank you, maybe I'll do it someday, but don't push me to it! Leave me alone! I can decide for myself!

"Sa lahat ng ayaw ko ay yung pinipilit akong gawin yung bagay na ayaw ko!"

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
10:18 PM

Friday, August 25, 2006
3 days to my birthday! back to examinations..

ei, its saturday and monday is going to be our first midterm exam..that will be in our botany lab.. and guess wat is the date on monday?? its August 28! and what is that? that's my BIRTHDAY!=) my 16th birthday.. so im getting older again.. new age to write in forms.. not 15 anymore but 16..=) anyway..so its the start of midterm exams next week and going to be very busy days again..hai, but when did we ever get a break? id say, like never! there's always something to do, and my weekend is fully loaded, because of midterm requiremnts, just hope that everything will be fine, so that, i will have a happy birthday! yehey! and i also hope that me and my friends will have something good to remember on the date of my birthday.. well, that's it! keeping my fingers crossed..=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:37 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006
catching up..

it's really fun when you get to see a close friend that you haven't seen in a while right? so this just happened to me this afternoon, I saw my friend again, so we talked, she told me about how she is now, and what worries her, it's good that even though were not always together anymore, and we rarely have any communication, we still feel comfortable with each other everytime we see each other again,, i just wish i have more relationships like this with my other friends,,

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
9:48 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006
selfish...

everytime there's an open forum in my class, i expect at least someone to have a stand against me, and yes, after a while, one or more would speak, so my last open forum experience was during my 4th year in highschool.. so i'm a selfish person they said, yup, madamot ako.
eh bkit ako mdamot? kc..gnito un, it depends on the person, the thing, and my mood.
First, the person, kung hindi ako at peace dun sa taong nanghihingi o nanghihiram sakin, eh bakit ako papayag? hindi kami close, ayoko sa kanya, hindi ko sya pinagkakatiwalaan, alam ko na burara sya, hindi sya deserving..bsta gnun,hindi talaga ko papayag..
Second, the thing, kung iniingatan ko nang sobra2 ung bagay, my sentimental value, hindi akin, mahal, kung wala ako nung bagay na un, mauubos na ung bagay na un, again, hindi ako papayag..
Third, my mood, hay naku noh, topakin akong tao, if you have read my past entry bout my personality, my serious self, subukan mo lang akong hingan o hiraman ng gamit pag gnun ang mood ko, wala kang mapapala sakin, maiinis ka lang, dahil pag ganun ang mood ko, ayaw ko nang storbo, ayokong may nangungulit sakin, kaya minsan, dinedeadma ko ung kumakausap skin..
And so, people who don't know my reasons, tingin nga nila skin is napakadamot na tao, yan po above ang defense ko sa pagsabi niyo na madamot ako,
May exception pa rin naman, madamot talaga ko sa pagkain, kahit sino pa man ang nanghihingi, kahit ano pa mang kinakain ko, o kahit ano pa man ang mood ko nung time na un, madamot po ako pagdating sa pagkain, pasensya na sa mga makipangan sakin, hahaha, maiinis talaga ko sayo, namimigay ako minsan.. dun ka na lang kumuha nun..=)
so para pa rin sa mga taong nagpupumilit, ang sabi pa rin ay madamot ako, fine fine fine, madamot na kung madamot, it's part of my system, so deal with it, layuan mo na lang ako,, bahala ka na..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
3:34 PM

Friday, August 04, 2006
uhm...

speaking of my personalities.. just for the fun of it.. you could classify my posts whether my mood was happy or serious when i posted it, its very easy to do, i tell you, there are some signs..just look for them =)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:57 PM

my alter ego..

let me tell you about my personalities..
one is my happy self, which is mostly what i am in school and outside, this is what i like to project to other people, i believe that this is what i really am, is it really?
now, the other is my serious self, which is mostly what i am at home, but not always, this is the self that i don't like, but essential to myself,,
i am my happy self when i am:
smiling, showing sense of humor, daydreaming, witty, sarcastic, acting crazy, talkative, noisy, wiggly(malikot)
i am my serious self when i am:
quiet, frowning, depressed, thinking, absent-minded, studying, easily irritated, angry, impatient, reading, sick, reflecting, bothered, hard to talk to, in my own world

i am a moody person, hard to be with, hard to comprehend that's why i'm always misunderstood, people who don't know me well judge me as different, weird, out of ordinary, a bad person, only my real friends are able to understand and are patient enough to stay and know about the real me. People who don't know me only sees my serious self, they can never picture me as the happy-go-lucky person that i really am. so, they just get away from me thinking that i'm a boring person, to hell with them all, i don't need them boring creatures.

Now, are you one of those creatures? do you have the guts to take a chance with me and try to be my friend? you decide..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:06 PM

some things i hate about myself

so here's this attitude of mine that i dont like.. i know its wrong.. it's wrong to expect of others and expect something in return for what you did.. it's also wrong to compare yourself to others.. so that's why i dont like my attitude of expecting others to act like me.. cause that's also quite impossible.. two people can't be the same.. and i'm also a unique person, i differ much from others, so it's quite hard to find another person the same as me..its complicated..so here's a situation where i think this way.. for example, i greet someone on her birthday, but when she forgets to greet me on my birthday, i'd feel bad and think, why can't she be more thoughtful like me? as selfish as it sounds, that's how i am, i feel ashamed of myself when i think that way, i feel like a very awful and bad person.. well, i don't know, this is my alter ego talking.. the serious me.. i hate my alter ego..but i think my conscience is associated with my alter ego, because just a while ago, when i was my usual happy self in school, i blurted out something which was actually quite wrong, this is another thing i hate about myself, so, i realized it was wrong and my mind switched to my alter ego, where i believe is where my conscience is.. i hated myself then for blurting that thought out, but i can't take it back then, so after that, i was again back to my usual self, am i weird or what? about my two personalities? read my next entry..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:01 PM

Monday, July 31, 2006
a dream i'd like to fulfill..

ever wonder how everlasting friendship starts and happen?
i wish i knew the answer to that,, because i'd really like to have friends that i could keep with me for as long as i can..i dont want to be alone when im growing old.. i can't have that anymore.. before, that was mostly my life, a loner,,, sure i have friends, but i can't really be proud and tell other people that, "Hey! These are my friends." yup, pitiful i know, that's why everytime i had the chance, i always asked God to bring me friends whom i can be with, those who would stick to me no matter what, those who would accept me even with my faults as a person, so finally, they came to me, i was so happy then, i had friends i could be proud of,, it's been good for more than a year, but we had to move on to college, i'm not able to talk to them much, some, no communication at all, so now i realized.. that they may not be the ones I dream of having an everlasting friendship with.. at least one or two of them i think would be possible.. but the others..i dont think so, and now, i've got new friends i've recently met, i get along very well with them.. so what should i do? maybe i'll just pray a little harder... and hope that at least one of them would be able to help me in fulfilling my dream of an everlasting friendship..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:28 PM

Sunday, July 30, 2006
what's wrong with being different?

every person is unique. so bkt pg my konti lng na kakaiba sa isang tao, cnsb n kaagad n weird xa.. hello.. mron pring pgkakaiba ang pgging simpleng different at s pgiging weird.. different is simple most of the times.. weird is complicated,,out of this world kumbaga,, extreme.. TOTALLY DIFFERENT.. so pg malala na ang pgiging different mo, ndi mo na gngawa ang usual actions ng normal people, dun k plng tlg officially ngiging weird.. baliw kn kng gnun, am i making a point here??

kng wla prn, think about it this way, alam mo sa srili mo na normal kang tao, you do normal things.. wla kang nsasaktang ibang tao, wala kang gngwang illegal.. you feel good about yourself, mron kang mga kaibigan, ndi ka ng-iisa sa mundo, mron kang feelings, you can think rationally,, you know exactly what you're doing to ur life..then, you are most definitely NOT 'weird'..... at kng mron pring mga tao na ngssbing WEIRD k nga, duh? care mo, deadma ka lng, wla xang karapatan na sbihing weird ka, nssb nia un dhil iba ang actions mo sknya, so what? ndi kyo iisang tao, kya iba kyong mg-isip, kng weird k pra sknya, tgnan mo xa, edi kakaiba rn xa sau? edi weird dn xa nun in your point of view,

nguguluhan k nb skin? tngin mo b weird nrin ako? care ko! wla kang mggwa, gnito ako, so take me as i am, kng ndi mo ko ma-carry, then don't! msyado lng malawak at complicated ang personality ko pra macomprehend ng mkitid mong utak,, pro ok lng yan, we are different in our own way aren't we?

We are our own person.

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
12:08 AM

Saturday, July 29, 2006
prelims and some revelations..

hai..ntpos nrn ang 4-day prelims..=) ok lng ang iba..pro ung iba nmn..nqo..bd3p..ndi ko alm kng ano ggwin.. nqo tlg.. dmi rn nangyari..kng ano2ng bgay.. meeting old m8s.. anyway.. while taking the test in NSTP this morning, one question was like this,, this kid has a very different attitude with his friends and when he is at home..he's fun to be with when among his peers but quiet when he is at home..my answer here was he hasn't conquered his real self and self image..ndi ko alam kng tama sgot ko..=) pro my point is..nkarelate ako dun sa exmple..gnun dn kc ako..msayahing bata sa skul..or bsta 2wing tyms na ksma ko friends ko..pro pg nsa bhay, serious at thimik..lgi png nkamungot..hai..cguro dhil sa atmosphere..pg kc ksma ko frnds ko,,nkklimutan mo ung ibng alalahanin na lgi mo nlng nririnig at naaalala pg nsa bhay..and so naicip ko.. alin sa dalawang image ko ang real image ko? ung totoong ako..ung masayahin o ung seryoso?

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:09 PM

Tuesday, July 25, 2006
suspended classes..

2 days na pong suspended ang classes,, saya noh? pro d bad thing is..2 days nang ding suspended ang aming prelims.. so ang nakakainis dun is..mag-aaral ka,tpos ndi nmn pla 2loy ang test, ainq, and the funny thing about this is, pag official nang suspended ang classes, bglang tumitigil ang ulan..ang sya tlg noh?=) so now, e2, nkkpgblog nnmn ako..=) dun nlng ako sumasaya..nkpgupd8 nnmn ako ng blog..kng ano2 nnmn ang pnglalagay ko.=) check out my pics ok?=) pro i miss my mates..my MaLaYa family..3 days ko n clang ndi nkkta..hai..so my psok n kya bkas??=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
11:17 AM

Monday, July 24, 2006
just in case u want 2 sing-along wid me..=)

so, here's the lyrics for my background music before..i really like this song, took me years to know what's its title..=) so now i know..i give you..

SWEET SOUL REVUE by Pizzicato Five

enjoy!!=)

Sweet Soul Revue
Pizzicato Five

Kesa hajimete
Kagami wo mite
Ki ga tsuita no
Anata ni koi shiteru no
Anata ni koi shiteru no

Omekashi shite
Doko e yuku no?
So anata ni
Ai ni yuku no yo
Baby machi wa itsumo parade
Baby dakara tsuite iko yo

Yo no naka ni wa
Sweet ya
Catchy ga ippai aru yo ne
Dakishimetai Ureshikute
Hoho hozuri shitakunaru desho

Hora revue ga hajimaru
Hora okurenaide ne
Hora revue ga hajimaru
Hora wasurenaide ne

Tabun kyo wa
Watashi wo mite
Ki ga tsuku hazu
Anata mo koi shiterutte
Watashi ni koi shiterutte

Terebi de mita Furui eiga
Musical no Revue mitai ne
Baby machi wa itsumo parade
Baby hora ne kikoeru desho

Yo no naka ni wa
Happy ya
Lucky ga ippai aru yo ne
Kuchizuketai Ureshikute
Hoho hozuri Shitakunaru desho

Hora revue ga hajimaru
Hora okurenaide ne
Hora revue ga hajimaru
Hora wasurenaide ne

Yo no naka ni wa
Sweet ya
Catchy ga Ippai aru hazu
Kami-sama Parade ni
Ame nante furasenaide

Yo no naka ni
Happy mo
Lucky mo Zenzen nakutemo
Anata to nara Ureshikute
Hoho hozuri shitakunaru desho
Hozuri shitakunaru desho

Hora revue ga hajimaru
Hora okurenaide ne
Hora revue ga hajimaru
Hora wasurenaide ne

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
10:16 AM

Saturday, July 22, 2006
what can i say about these...

well, e2ng mga ksma sa list ko na ito,, nandun cla sa isa kong entry..tgnan nio nlng below.. ung "..." ang title..things that u experience in college,,and also in highschool..=) so ano nga b mssbi ko bout sa mga 2?...

stress>> i had it wid me since birth..
depression>> my regular friend..always visits me this past few days..
rejection>> hate experiencing it,, and hurts badly depending on the person who rejected you..
jealousy>> one of my favorite words.. what can i say? selosa kong tao..
envy>> uhm..dis is a bad thing which one can't really avoid..
hurt>> self-explanatory..pra ka lang nmng dinudurog pg gnito ka..
anger>> ayoko nito..d kmi msyadong close..
concern>> mganda kng mrming gnitong tao sau..ndi ka mg-iisa pg ng-eemote ka..
tears>> product of too much hurt and depression, sometimes even happiness..
forgiveness>> seventy time seven times..as the Bible says.. but very hard to do sometimes,,
faith>> needed by every person..for stability..
hope>> one that pulls you from bad times..depression, people would die without this,
trust>> needed in every relationship to last..
love>> most wonderful feeling..but takes a lot of risks to survive..
friendship>> my most priced possession,, i can't live without it now..no one can,,
laughter>> product of happiness or hysteria for extreme cases, a good thing? essential to friendship,,

and that's my list for now..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:28 PM

buhay ay happy once agen...=)

hai,,nsb ko 2 kc bati na uli kmi ni ma...=) khpon kc..well akin nlng un,,=) klimutan n rw ang mga nangyari eh..ehe.=) and syado mdrama.. mnsan lng ako ngkkgnun, at in public pa gosh, kpg nmn tlg......un,=) pro ang mssbi ko lng is, msarap ang feeling kpg wla ka nang kaaway, or ktampuhan..lalo na pg friend mo ung nkaaway mo..aiun, pra ka tlgng nwalan ng heavy load..laki kc epekto skin pg mron akong ndi kasundo..ndi ako mppkali, ndi mo rin ako maipinta, madrawing, tlgng mron akong sriling mundo pg gnun ang dpression ko..ehehe..tulala..lalim iniisip,,mkakausap prn nman ako,,un eh kng mririnig kta..=) bsta pg thimik nko,,aiun, binisita nnmn ako ng aking regular frnd n c dpression..ok? kya sa mga tao n nkapligid skin pg gnito ako, psensya nlng po...=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
6:54 PM

Thursday, July 20, 2006
after depression, rejection nmn..

masakit mreject noh? lalo n kng kclose mo nang reject sau, ang sarap tlgng mnira ng bagay pg gnun, pro well, ano b nmn ang mggwa mo? tama nga nmn ang ksabihan na.. "Wag mo pgpilitan ang sarili mo sa taong ayaw sau." pro inspite of that, msakit prn db?? ainq, pnira tlg..pnira ng araw, wla lng..wla nko msb, maedit nlng uli mnsan..ehe..=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
6:57 PM

Depression part 2,,and its effects..

e2 nnmn ako..eh kc nmn lgi nga kc akong depressed, ewan ko ba, sensitive nrn ata ako..atlst hndi n msydong manhid noh?? aiun, kninang umaga, msaya p ko, monthsary nga kc nming apat na MaLAYa..so chem Lab..ok prn ako, pgktpos nun eh nrealize ko na nwawala ang payong ko..my payong na so laki kya never pgnanasaang kunin, at ndi rn kc umuulan..ainq, ok prn nman ako nun, worried lng.. ndpressed lng tlg ko nung lunchtym..kht pgkain ndi nktulong, bkt gnun? malas ata skin 2nd floor ng chowking..lging my nangyyring masama..bwisit, so un, bmalik kmi sa rum n dpressed ako, pgktpos mganswer s algebra, dnaan nlng sa tulog..nananaginip n nga rn ako nun eh..pro un, mdyo ok nrn ako, pro bd3p prn, dpt ko na bng isama s descriptions ko ang moody? cguro nga..dti ndi nmn ako gnito..hai, so pauwi nkmi, bd3p nga ako, my nsb p 2loy ako, dhil tinotopak, ndi na ng CR, ndi na kmain,, dretso sakay sa jeep, at ano nmn ang mga gnwa ko sa jeep? pnagpupunit ko ung notebook ko, binali ung pencil..naglittering sa angeles..at ngbasketbol sa jeep nung paper ball..sa trash can..aion,laki tlg ng topak ko! mana ko s ma ko.. and so un, ok nrn after kong mnira ng kung ano2..kya lng ndpressed nnmn ako dhil kay ma..ndi kc ko n2loy s knila..tlgang ndi ko xa knausap..ehe.=) love you ma..sori knina..mkulit lng tlg anak mo at topakin..=) at un, dhil laki prn topak ko on d way home..ang bilis ng biyahe..so naicp ko, dpt pla pg naiinip nko sa biyahe..mdepress ako gnun? ai, so nkrating dn sa bahay..pgkdting ko, lht ng tao 2log, edi naupo ako sa bed, knuha english book at tnapos ung assign ng 10 minutes.. o db? my positive effect dn ang dpression!=) aiun, tpos nagNap nko nun, dnaan nlng uli sa 2log..ehe..sndli nga lng..then e2, ibinuhos n lht sa blog..ok araw ko noh?=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
6:34 PM

Presenting..The MaLaYa Family! =)

There was once a room in the heart of AUF,
called IT-501, where all students were quite normal
all were talking and all were noisy.
one group was extraordinary
they are the MALAYA Family.

June 29, 2006-Thursday-Lunchtime
so jia told ila:
"You're my mama."
then told gia:
"And you're lola."
and told norvic:
"And you'll be my yaya."
And POOF! MALAYA! =)

But then, days passed and we grew many,
to become a one big happy family!=)

Here's my Family, in relation to me..
Ma>>Princess Ila Diamzon
La>>Gia Heida Bognot
Ya>>Norvic Garcia
GrandMa>>Frances Shin Fabro>>sister of La
Titas>>
-Jabriel Pangilinan>>half-sister of Ma; daughter of Ya
-Ralph Manelle Quiambao>>adopted daughter of La
-Pamela Dizon>>niece of La; cousin of Ma
-Marie Frances Claire Dizon>>younger sister of Ma
-Lorcille Penaranda>>youngest sister of Ma
Cousins>>
-Shierlyn Pineda>>granddaughter of Ya; daughter of Tita Jab
-Joan Marie Clemente>>adopted granddaughter of La; daughter of Tita Manel
Tito>>Pawandeep Sangar>>illegitimate child of Lolo(whoever he is..=)
Servants..=)>>
-Charmine Herrera>>the driver
-Joar Bonifacio>>the landscaper sideline doctor; older brother of Ya
-Cathrina Diane Alvaro>>the chef; younger sister of Ya
-Denver Ison>>the bodyguard

So now, who am I in the family?=)
I am their LAST HOPE.=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
5:14 PM

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jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
4:47 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006
BLUE..BLUE..BLUE..

ewan ko b kng bkt puro blue ang nkkta ko ngung araw na 2.. well actually nung bandang hapon na ngstart mgprmdam skin ang blue.. d lng blue na color.. blue rin as adjective..also known as malungkot..o well, bka guni2 ko lng,,ehe.=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
10:15 PM

dePreSsiOn...

bkt b my depression? mttwag mo b ang isang taong depressed n moody? cguro.. pro ndi nmn sa lht.. mrmi rn nmang ibang factors na mkkpgpdepressed s isang tao..mron lng tlgng tyms n bgla kng ttmaan ng depression.. i mean, 1 second and sya2 mo p tpos bglng un, dpressed and msma n pkramdam mo and wla k na nga sa mood.. aburido in short.. ndi rn mkausap ng mtino..ai ewan..mhirap tlg iexplain ang depression noh..ang hirap n nga lng d2 is mnsan..ndi ntn nmamalayan, kpag depressed tyo, na my naaapektohan na plang ibang tao..ainq.. we can't blame people n depressed s mga pngsssb nla.. dhil pg depressed k nga eh my srili k na ngang mundo at gs2 mo lng mgmukmok s tabi noh.. kya un.. ung ma ko..( mama ko s skul.. c mama ila,,hi ma..=) kpg dpressed, either mgastos or idadaan nlng sa kain.. sb nga.. gutom lng yan..asus, ehehe.=) o cge na..d2 n mna..gudbye dpression, leave me alone..i don't need you, stress is enough..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
9:26 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006
quizzes..prelims..stressed :o!!!

ano b yan,,umpisa n ng prelims bkas, pro s mga pnaggggwa ko ngung gbi, prang wla kong kbalak2 mg-aral, nq, san nlng tlg ko pupulutin n2? hai, nkktmad kc eh, wla ko s kondisyon pra magreview,,(kelan pb??) ai tlg nman, pra kcng msyadong fast 4ward, ndi b pwedeng i-pause mn lng sndli? prang kelan lng eh 1st day plng ng classes tpos ngun bglang major exams na..waah! im not frefared! ano b yan? nkakastress tlg!! dmi p requiremnts! nkkainiz nmn tlg, wag n kya ko magreview? mgrereview nlng ako dun s test nmin bkas n ndi p ndiscuss..ung sa intro 2 pharma,,ainq, isa p yang subjct n yan, lging kailngan mg-self study, lgi kc ndi n22loy klase nmin dun, un pmo dpt and prioritized sbject dhil Pharmacy ang course ko noh, my quiz dn sa filipino, the heck, my least favorite sbjct, i just hate it since birth! nung 4th year mdyo ok kc gs2 ko ung tcher, pro ngun..e1, prng no effect tcher eh, i simply hate the sbjct, tpos s CFE, kailngan b tlg lht un? sori Lord, pro kailngn pbng mgkaroon ng mga quizzes s CFE eh ang importante lng nmn tlg dun s mdevelop dw ang iyong Christian Faith, hai buhai, ewan ko b sa mundo, npkacomplicated, nku noh, dont mind me people, nag-iinarte lng ako d2, ayoko lng kcng mgreview, ayoko ng-iicip in short, kya pno na? pno ko mgging mtagumpay na pharmacist n2? hai, ewan, time will tell, pro d question is, mgrreview pb ko?=) wag nlng?? OK!=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:19 PM

Saturday, July 15, 2006
FrieNd or wHat??...

familiar k b sa tanong sau na.. " ui, npano k?" in a sympathetic tone ha.. tpos ung walang kmatayang sgot mo nmn na.. "wala.." or better yet, the famous wala lng shrug.. or better prn dun, ung sgot mong silence..wlng sgot.. bkt ko kmo tnatnong? eh halos kc ang mga ngttnong sau n2 ay ung mga frnds mo.. naicp ko, pwede ring batayan un kng cno mga frnds mo.. ung friends n concerned sau ha..ndi ung ngttnong lng dhil tsismosa, curious lng or smthing..iba un. e1 ko, naicp ko nga, prang kng cno ung pnkamkulit and patient na mgttnong sau n2ng tnong na to, hnggng finally sagutin mo na nga, isa un sa mga taong concerned tlg sau.. true friend kumbaga.. do u agree?
try niO lng mnsan..pro nkakainis nmn ung mg-eemote k dyan sa tabi tpos wla mn lng ppncin sau, o db ang sarap nmn manapak ng tao nun? naiimagine mo b ang feeling nun? ako d lng imagine, i know. ainq..bwisit tlg un..o well, kya may lesson dn d2..wag n wag n wag mong hahayaang wla kng friends.. dpt lgi kang my nririnig na "ui npno k?" ,, mas ok na un, kaysa s wla.=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
7:32 PM

Friday, July 14, 2006
bkt gnun?

my npncn ako.. una ko p 2ng nkta weeks ago.. dhil my psukan n nga at tag-ulan,, and so, nung first tym ko xa nkta,,nkk2wa,, sb ko s ksma ko, "Tgnan mo lht ng mga ngllakad..mga folding umbrella lht ang gmit.." nkk2wa nga nmn kcng tgnan..pre2ho ng shapes at size.. wla p kc kong dla2ng sriling payong ko nun, jacket lng ako,,ambon2 lng nmn eh.. pro ds last few days, lakas ulan, at nlalagnat nga ako, kya my dala kong payong, ndi nga lng folding noh, dala ko ung mlaki.. so, ang npncin ko ngun, mdalang s students na ang dala is ung k2lad nung payong ko, ang nppncin ko, halos ung mga mttnda ang my ganong klase, so ang remark ko ngun is.. " what is it wid students? mgddla n nga lng ng payong, ung maliit p, mga pacute!" hahahaha! o ano? tnamaan kb?=) wla lng.. ngtataka lng nmn ako eh..bkt ba? defense nmn nung iba, pra mgkasya rw sa bag, ainq.. eh pg gnmit mo at nbsa na, ippsok mo pb s bag mo? ai e1.. ngttka lng tlg ko,,ehe.=) pax!!

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
10:39 PM

e2 nnman!

my phabol nnmn n mga ulan! xet! tama na! ayoko na! enough is enough! past is past! leave us alone!

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
10:30 PM

waaaahhhh!!!!

another bad news..... s Monday na ata ang pnakabusy n araw.. 5 out of 6 subjects, my test kmi, at ang second is prelims s botany lab.. tpos quiz sa Intro 2 Pharma..eh sriling aral un,, nku..self-study nnmn...waah..my weakness,,and adding to the tests,,andmi, dmi, dmi, dming ippass na requiremnts,,nkkloka.. actually, dpt gngwa ko na ang iba sa knila ngun,, pro look at what i'm doing? e2 ngbblog ehehehe.. wla na..ndi n tlg ko mcucure s isa ko png skit na procrastination..do you know that?=) kng ndi, check the dictionary..its one of my favored hobbies..very negative indeed, hai, o well,,that's just me.. hard to change.;p

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
10:24 PM

d happening of 2day s iskul..

ai..my psok na nga..kakainis ang weather..msyadong maulan for d likes of me.. it's not like i hate the rain and especially water.. coz i love both of them.. i love rain especially when it causes suspension of classes.. i love water....just because its water..i'm actually born on the year of the water horse..is that an explanation?=) maybe.. and so, let me tell you, although i like rain, i hate it when it affects me.. for exmple, it causes sickness.. i also hate it very much when there are classes and it keeps splashing all over the place..so messy, yuck, you might be wondering why i'm telling you this..its simply because today..there was so much rain i can't stand it..as in really..you'll have to go here and you have to avoid everywhere you go..you'll always have to open your umbrella..and the frustrating thing is.. i went home by public transport, the heck, i'll tell you, that was a very stupid thing to do, and another thing.. one of the jeepneys that we rode has a hole in the roof i think, it keeps leaking water right at me, how frustrating is that? the rain also went inside via the window and went right at my face, hell, so i said, "pwede bng mgpayong d2 sa loob ng jeep?" ainq.. good thing i arrived home..that's because i was fetched..=) and thank god, the rain has stopped leaking from the atmosphere above, the heck with it.

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
9:20 PM

Thursday, July 13, 2006
my psok na bkas..

ainq..kala ko p nmn wla pring psok bkas..hai.. hahaha..ang gulo2 ko..ndi ko mlaman kng gs2 o ayaw kong pmasok..gnyan ang epekto ng college sa tao..nkkloka.=) bhala na..at least mkikita ko nnmn ang mga friendly friends ko.=) pro dhil my psok n nga..kailngan ko nang gmawa ng assyn at magreview(as if!)..kya bye2 my blog..=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
8:14 PM

rainy days...and my bad study habit..

mgnda b na wlang psok 2day o ndi?? uhm,, actually, msaia ko n wlang psok ngun, kc nga my lagnat ako at kailngan ko ng phinga.. so nkpgphinga nga ako,at nkaligtas kmi ng classm8s ko s tatlong tests..so is that a good thing or a bad thing? tingin mo? eh kc nmn prelims nrn nxt week noh, pno nmn ang lessons nmin, bka kmi nmn ang mhirapan n2..bka bglng sbhn n knya-knyang aral nlng dhil wla nang tym for dscussion...oh my gosh..ndi pwede un, dun tlg ako mhina..s self study..akala ng iba ang gling2 ko kc lgi rw mtaas ang scores ko s tests.. akala nla ngrreview ako s bhay..ai ndi noh..very very wrong,, npakadalang kong mag-aral.. nag aaral lng tlg ko pg my tests at ndi p seryosohang review un ha..browsing of notes lng..nver p akong ng advance study.. lht ng naissgot ko, dhil sa dscussion, tnatambak ko lht ng lessons s utak ko 2wing dscussion proper..kya kng wlang dscussion, pno nlng kya ako? san ako pupulutin n2? ainq,,bka s piggery..ehehe.=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
4:30 PM

ang hirap tlga ng may sakit..

mhirap tlaga ang may sakit..o wait lng..bka icpin nio nmn n malala ang sakit ko..ndi nmn..lagnat lng..hehehe..eh kc nmn, npkadalang ko lng tlg lagnatin noh, cguro once a year is enough..aion, problema kc sakin is ayokong uminom ng tablet..arte noh? wla kyong mggwa, ha! ewan ko b..so in d end syrup prn ang ininom ko pra mbawas bawasan na nga ang sakit ko, sobra n kc ubo ko noh, prng wla nang bukas..naiiyak nko s sobrang sakit..pro e2..nkaraos na..nkkpgblog na nga eh..hehehe.=) mdyo ok nko thank god..

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
2:48 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006
Hello..=)

Hi! I am Jiannelle de Vera-de Jesus.. welcome to my new blog.=) i'll try to keep posting here as much as i can. i'm a very busy person,ehe.=)

jia..d' freakin' complicated girl..
2:11 PM